Living Life to the Fullest . .

The Year That Was ... 2009

2009-12-24T10:57:00.001+08:00

The year that was ...

2009

Every year is memorable for us... But for this year it is different.. 2009 was the year that made me learn and realize on to something different. This was the year where i fell down and stood up in a process and found new things where I can simply share be accepted as what I am. This was the year when I realized that everything is in constant change, That we need to accept things despite of any decisions that we made.

The year started with a shaky relationship, with someone that I thought would be the one. It started my year with nothing but a gloomy weather. He left me for unnecessary reason, for something that he can't accept of being me. I was shattered and was down. But then again new opportunity came. I was promoted at work and being recognized by people on what they see me as a potential.

I worked hard... And yet the fruit is still ripe that right now... Im still working hard in order for me to grow and explore onto something new.

I was hooked up with my job. I have closed my doors to any possibilities that would come when it comes to relationship.

I spent time with my bestfriend and close friends as an outlet of being lonely and alone despite of the successes that I've achieved.

I dated a couple of people but it didn't work out.

Until I met someone that made my world smile. Someone that made me laugh and smile despite of sadness of being alone. Someone that accepts me of what I am. Someone that is open and vocal on things that we want to agree on to. Someone that I truly love.

RIght now I'm happy and yet contented on what I have. Now, I realized why people smile despite of everything that is against you. I learned how to take risk and face fear no matter what. I learned to love and be loved in return. And most of all I learned to prioritize things and recognize people as such.

Thank you for being a part of my year. And looking on to a New Year to spend and a new year to work on to things that I started this year.

Seasons Greetings!!

Taking Risk and Facing Fear

2009-11-27T02:39:00.000+08:00

When we finally move on, we already embrace changes, ... acceptance ... and be open to any possibilites...

Its been a while since I felt like this.

Having good conversation with friends and share advises and views when they needed you the most.

Be dedicated at work and think of it as a career.

Meeting new friends in seeking of better company.

and

Spending time with special someone, trying to be comfortable with each other, and share each moment with Good Laughs and Good Conversation.

Making us smile despite of the consequences coming.

To feel secured and be Happy.

...

Just when realization comes.

We can see ourselves taking risk and facing fear like we had faced off before.

Just to be happy.

Smile

2009-09-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

When we Smile...

We always smile for a Reason...

Sometimes it might just be pure Happiness...

But most of the time we smile Thinking of someone that made your Life much more Easier...

We Smile...

To ease the pain and take away the Stress...

I Smile...

Coz` There is someone whom i Look on to...

Wait...

and Share Life...

in a matter of time....

Window To The Sky

2009-08-03T12:18:00.000+08:00

As I watch through my window... I see the very gloomy sky... I feel the cold weather... i can hear the raindrops falling from the sky...

But despite of a sad and gloomy day... I feel better, thinking of the things that I have done, moving on and not looking back, achieving my goals and learning the art of acceptance. I can say that I am Renewed.

I had loved you more than you think I would

2009-05-09T19:41:00.000+08:00

People tend to get bitter everytime they lost the love that once they had. We tend to put hatred on it and ask ourselves "What have I done?" We become weak, start being sarcastic, and somehow lost the ability to love. We isolate ourselves and trying to find another comfort zone.

But looking on the brighter side. Instead of killing ourselves from emotional breakdown. Let go of things that aren't meant for you to have.

A friend once sent me a very inspiring message. It says:

"You should be bitter and don't be full of hatred when the one you love does not love u the way you love him. Ask, listen and let go. Don't force youself to understand when you can't, to fight hard when obviously its over and to play deaf to the nagging truth that what you've had doesn't work and wont work anymore...

Say this instead

I had loved you more than you think I would, but I feel sorry that you've lost your chance to be loved more that you would ever feel in your life after this."

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Regret

2009-03-25T19:39:00.000+08:00

A friend once asked me...

If I had any regrets on something that I've done in the past... that I could be better today..

I answered..

"I don't regret any decision I made and any mistakes that i could have corrected in the past.. Everything happens for a reason.. Life isn't all about destiny.. It is always a Yes or No.. Now or Never... It is a choice.."

There's always a point.. where we always reminisce the past and think of something we could have done that would make us better today... But looking on the brighter side, we always look forward and accept that things really happen for a reason... But the good thing is ... we tried everything to make it better prior to moving on...

Happiness can be achieved once we accept things that made in the past... make us what we are today to be better... happy and fulfilled...

Sometimes... its not what we want that can make us happy... Its what's not and acceptance..

--

"Many people have a wrong idea of what constitutes true happiness. It is not attained through self-gratification, but through fidelity to a worthy purpose.

It's Over

2009-03-10T10:54:00.000+08:00

It is such a nice feeling when you can all say

"It's Over"

without any hesitation...

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Most of us always hold on to something that we can barely touch. We always think that holding on means hope, where hope is becoming a mere ambition, a dream. A dream, that will never come true, that will always stay as a dream.

Learning the art of acceptance means facing the reality, We always get back on the track and move on. Live our lives in a normal way where it is used to be. We always move forward and leave no traces behind but tracks.

Right now... Life has been treating me so nice... Where I can live by my own decision, choose the right path for me. And most of all living life to its fullest, Loving the way it is, and accepting things always happen for a reason.

You can never be contented... just satisfied

2009-03-04T07:47:00.000+08:00

For the past few weeks I've been ejoying life. hanging out with new found friends who shares their thoughts, feelings and insights. Making me comfort most of the time when i feel down and depressed. Chillaxin in movie houses and have some good conversation over a cup of coffee. Having a laughing moments with Red Horse, Kamikze, Microphone and Bleeding Love songs. Going to church on sundays and listen to the homilee and word of God. They are the one who oppose on what you think and look on the positive side of life. But still i found friend and company with them.

But even how happy you feel is... there comes a point in your life that we feel depressed, sad and alone...

Going home alone, sleeping alone, eating alone... makes me say "something is missing in me".. But still I can't figure it out...

well they said...

"You can never be contented... Just satified..."

for most of the people...
cannot be contented...
we always look for much better...
we always leave things behind...
and look for the better...

How I wish... I can be contented on what I have and what I had...

sigh***

Love ...

2009-02-23T14:22:00.001+08:00

(Currently Listening: Love Moves in Mysterious Ways by Nina)

According to the song...

"Love moves in mysterious ways..."

Love really moves in mysterious ways. It is unpredictable. It moves in a way where we don't know how to control it. It moves in a way that seems nobody is around you and your world shuts down. It moves in a way where we believe, hope and dream that happiness could be achieved in an utmost level. Like every mans dream "To fall in love... and be loved in return."

Love is the foundation of any relationships. It is the basic foundation of trust and commitment. It is the source of sacrifices and understandings. It makes your self-steem low. It makes a different person. and somehow it makes us a better person.

But how positively can we think of love. Love can be harsh in some ways.

Love can ruin partnership and break the bond of trust and commitment. It is the reason why we became selfish and self-centered. We easily get attached to someone that we forget ourselves and the people around us.

But eventhough we lose some of it. We still hope that one day love will come our way no matter how hard the consequences is just to feel love once again and be happy...

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Facing the New Me

2009-01-28T19:27:00.003+08:00

Hey People.. am Back!!!

It has been weeks since I've posted my last entry. A lot of things has been happening to me. Just recently a tragic event just happened in my life whom I did not expect. It was all of a sudden. Its like a smash of a big hammer onto me.

Well indeed it hurts. I can't accept it. It's like the whole world crashed down on me. I am devastated.

From that moment I felt guilty... Guilty because I let my world evolve around him... Guilty because I let myself a second priority... Guilty because I never gave myself a chance to stand up alone...

I was seeking for an advice from my friend (a true friend, i can attest to that..) and gave me some things in life that I lack and probably remember... out of the conversation i tried to create a quote.

"Loving someone is a huge responsibility and it involves a lot of sacrifices. If you're not mature enough to handle that, then you are not ready to commit. If you keep on holding what you are, then you will never find your true self."

Right now.. I'm still not losing hope... I am still hoping... Hoping that everything will be fixed, hoping that everything will be alright... Not in an instant but in gradual phase... I'm not closing doors for chances for its not asked... its given... I can and will wait...

With this tragic moment... I am facing a new me... A person who does not quit, a person who is determined and motivated... A person who prioritize himself and a person who stand alone...

Bold and Fearless

2009-01-04T12:40:00.003+08:00

It was a boring day for me. We don't have any workload to do for the whole shift. I was busy reading some stuff when suddenly my teammate was able to find a website where you can check whats it means.

source: What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Well here's what I've got from my name:

You Are Bold and Fearless

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

2008 – Overview of My Life

2009-01-01T11:57:00.000+08:00

Probably the Best Year for me ever.

This is the time when I decided to work here in Cebu and join the crowd. This is the time when I decided to leave the company when I feel that I’m not well compensated considering the tenureship, dedication and hard work that I gave to the company.

It is on this year when I found a new home, new career and new “me”. Though a lot of struggle came when I’m still on a transition from the things that I am used to be to the things that is New to me. It is also on this time when I decided to leave and let go of someone I knew and been longing for. Well it really felt good.

In this year, I found myself all alone and felt that I’m fooled to those people whom I thought who would save me of what I’ve become.

But evetually, someone came. And thought me how to be open again and tells me there’s more to life than the four walls of my room.

This is the time when I truly understand what Unconditional Love is and knowing how to keep it.

It is the time when I found true friends that really understand and cares.

Its been a good year to me. Hoping for a better, happy and worth living 2009.

Happy New Year!!

Wishlist

2008-12-22T21:49:00.016+08:00

3 more days and its Christmas

Now I can feel that its Christmas Season already. A lot of people is going on leave for Christmas Vacation (unfortunately.... been celebrating Christmas in the office for the past 2 years).. on the Christmas Eve and Christmas Day it is gonna be my Rest Day. For the first time in 3 years, Its gonna be my restday on those days (DAMN!! as far as I really want to work but it seems that my teammates doesn't want to have a swap since its DOUBLE PAY!!!). Probably it will be the first time that I am going to spend it alone in my room.

Its kinda sad but I don't have any choice.

Poh, will be having a shift on that night. Establishments are closed. And I bet less jeeps will be on the road.

sigh...

But still I am hoping for a Happy Christmas on that night.

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Here are my Christmas Wishlist, Its just a list though..

Boxer Shorts

Since I sleep and stay in my room a lot. It would be better if I only wear boxer shorts since its very relaxing and it will lessen my laundry problems.

A White or Dirty White Chuck Taylor Shoes

Probably if I have money I will buy this. Probably from Bench or Penshoppe (I Prefer. Converse is too expensive)

A Pair of Jeans

A pair of Jeans ( Rugged Look ) from JAG, Dickies or Bench. This is the first Christmas that I haven't bought any pants. (will be buying by January)

New Jacket ( the green one from ArtWork )

Hayyyyyyy... Been dying to buy that Jacket that I saw in ArtWork. But Im working on it right now. ( Diet!! Diet!!! Diet!! )

Toblerone Dark Choco

A lot of Chocolates... I mean dark chocolates.. But unfortunately, Im Allergic to it ( sad.. sigh..)

Pizza and Pasta

I miss my mom's homemade pasta... huhuuhuhu...
and a take out Pizza from Shakey's huhuhuhuhu....

A lot of Christmas Greetings

Somehow.. greetings on Christmas Eve will somewhat makes me happy and satisfied. Well at least they are thinking about you and your happiness.
Love

One of the best gift that I have received. Well kowing that theres someone who cares for you and loves u undeniably... That really feels good... Not just during christmas season... But all of the time..

and

Finally

Giving Thanks to those people.. who made me Smile, Laugh, and Feel that I exist..

To my close friends...

Who never gave up on me... even though during dark times..

To my enemies...

That made me a better person and teach me how to fight and act professionally.

To my Family...

Who is always there... to cheer me up and made me what I am right now..

To Poh

Who never gave up on me... For giving me love that makes me smile and help me back on the track.. For making me feel not just satisfied but contented

and

To God

For giving me blessings and inspirations in Life...

Going Back

2008-12-21T12:16:00.003+08:00

For the past few years I've been out of the track. I made myself a loner. Having limited friends and having no time to socialize and explore the outside world of my Room and work make me realize that I missed a lot. But lately I am going back to normal life, I'm starting to get back to the track whom i missed for the past 4 years.

Thanks to Poh for having a lot of patient on me, for making me speak and not just stay in silence, for letting me explore things that theres more to life outside the four walls of my room and for the love that makes me go back to where I belong.

For now... am happy...

and

still adjusting to the things that I have missed...

^_~ Mhaldito~

Marriage

2008-12-11T15:27:00.006+08:00

Last week.. Wella (Author of Thinking Pen), my colleague, has been asking me if what is my point of view about same sex marriage. Coz she is composing a blog about it. ( please visit her site to read her entry about same sex marriage )

I told her...

"I am not a believer in marriages (not just for same sex marriage but for marriage as a whole)... I believe in commitment and how to oblige on it.. It is not necessary to be married in order for your love be perfected.."

Love can be perfected by two people working a strong relationship... It is the foundation of trust that that you gain and earn on both sides... It is a bridge of communication for two people working together as one...

I have a college/close friend who is having a problem with marriage... her partner has been married before and got kids... They've been together for years and yet she still want to be married with her partner... She is having a problem knowing that his partner is not yet annulled with his previous wife... She is afraid that one day she might loose her partner just because they're not married and they can't be recognized as a family ( luckily they got a very cute son )...

I asked her...

"Do you love him?"

and she said... "Yes, I do..." I asked again...

"Does he love you?"

and she answered... "Yeah, he's been telling me that and showing it..."

I then asked her a follow-up question...

"Then... Whats the problem?"

she just stared at me and cried... and then I told her...

"Do not be afraid just because you both are not married... Marriage is just papers.. you sign them and be recognized... But what's important is the commitment that you both vowed to each other... The love that you shared through all these years..."

Do not think of marriage as a lacking peice in the puzzle that makes your relationship perfect... Don't make your life more complicated just because of that...

You both are happy...

Be contented on what you have...

The most important is you have HIM...

and he has YOU..."

....

I was reading at Wella's entry ( and got permission to post a paragraph of it.. ).. And I told her... "this is for you".... and then post it on our IM

Marriage is a sacred and a legal vow of commitment, but we can also love without having to go through a sacred ceremony. If our law demanded to limit marriage to a man and a woman, why bother tying the knot when we can show love other than exchanging I dos? There are a lot of ways to show our love and it has nothing to do with blotting our decrees much more with regulations than would make it more imperfect.

Thanks to Thinking Pen...

First Time

2008-12-07T21:00:00.004+08:00

For 10 months in the company that i am currently working. Today is the first time that we had Team Lunch together with my Supervisor, Teammates and our Wavemate QE. It was really fun. We had our Team Lunch after shift @ Chika-an sa Cebu Restaurant located at SM Northwing.

A lot of issues has been happenning internally on the team but still we manage to give it a very exciting and happy group as we ate... talk... ate... talk and ate...

We had our exchange gift and have a sort of bonding moments together with the team that we rarely do it for the past 10 months... luckily I got 2 ArtWork Shirts ( as what is stated in my wishlist )...

After lunch we had a small talk and strolling around the mall and ending up riding bumper inside Bibo. Honestly it is my first time to ride and drive a bumper... After the experience i find myself laughing... smiling... perspiring and saying... "That was a Stress Reliever!!!"... Yeah it is indeed a stress reliever... For a moment I forgot those things that bugs in my head and it was replaced with enjoyment, fun, and have more time to laugh, talk and exchange jokes with my colleague/friends...

After the bonding moment with the team... I realized that eventhough we had conflicts with our colleague at work... we still find them a friend... who helps u to be stronger because of the gap that both of u make...

Looking forward for more bonding moment with the team..

Weeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~!!!

Last Song Syndrome

2008-12-06T00:56:00.005+08:00

From the moment I heard this song it really keeps playing in my head most of the time. Maybe because the lyrics of the song and its rendition really sounds good to my ears or the impact of the melody of the song to its lyrics and music. Well.. this is the line that really stuck me the moment I heard this song..

"I'm not calling for a second chance

I'm screaming at the top of my voice

Give me reason, but don't give me choice

Cause I'll just make the same mistake again"

--oOo--

SAME MISTAKE

cover by BOYCE AVENUE

So while I'm turning in my sheets

And once again I cannot sleep

Walk out the door and up the street

Look at the stars beneath my feet

Remember rights that I did wrong

So here I go

uhuuuu uhuuuu uhuuuu

And so I sent some men to fight

And one came back at dead of night

Said he'd seen my enemy

Said he looked just like me

So I set out to cut myself

And here I go

uhuuuu uhuuuu uhuuuu

I'm not calling for a second chance

I'm screaming at the top of my voice

Give me reason, but don't give me choice

Cause I'll just make the same mistake again

uhuuuu uhuuuu uhuuuu

And maybe someday we will meet

And maybe talk but not just speak

Don't buy the promises cause

There are no promises I keep

and my reflection troubles me

So here I go

I'm not calling for a second chance

I'm screaming at the top of my voice

Give me reason, but don't give me choice

Cause I'll just make the same mistake

I'm not calling for a second chance

I'm screaming at the top of my voice

Give me reason, but don't give me choice

Cause I'll just make the same mistake again

Twilight Series [ e-book ]

2008-12-05T00:24:00.010+08:00

“Share everything. Don't take things that aren't yours. Put things back where you found them.”

-Robert Fulghum

--oOo--

TWILIGHT

TWILIGHT PDF FILE

Twilight tells the story of 17-year-old Bella Swan who moves to the small town of Forks, Washington to live with her father, and becomes drawn to Edward Cullen, a pale, mysterious classmate who seems determined to push her away. But neither can deny the attraction that pulls them together...even when Edward confides that he and his family are vampires. Their unorthodox romance puts her in physical danger when Edward's nemesis comes to town and sets his sights on Bella.

NEW MOON

NEW MOON PDF FILE

For Bella Swan, there is one thing more important than life itself: Edward Cullen. But being in love with a vampire is even more dangerous than Bella could ever have imagined. Edward has already rescued Bella from the clutches of one evil vampire, but now, as their daring relationship threatens all that is near and dear to them, they realize their troubles may be just beginning...

ECLIPSE

ECLIPSE PDF FILE

As Seattle is ravaged by a string of mysterious killings and a malicious vampire continues her quest for revenge, Bella once again finds herself surrounded by danger. In the midst of it all, she is forced to choose between her love for Edward and her friendship with Jacob—knowing that her decision has the potential to ignite the ageless struggle between vampire and werewolf. With her graduation quickly approaching, Bella has one more decision to make: life or death. But which is which?

BREAKING DAWN

BREAKING DAWN PDF FILE

Breaking Dawn, is a reference to the beginning of Bella's life as a vampire. The cover is a metaphor for Bella's progression throughout the entire saga; she began as the physically weakest player on the board, the pawn, but ended up the strongest, the queen." The plays The Merchant of Venice and A Midsummer Night's Dream both influenced Breaking Dawn. Originally, Meyer wrote a book titled Forever Dawn, which was a direct sequel to Twilight. While the basic storyline stayed the same, Forever Dawn was narrated completely from Bella's point of view, the werewolves and Jacob were "only sketchily developed", Victoria and Laurent were both alive, and there was an epilogue.

--oOo--

MIDNIGHT SUN (Edward's Version of Twilight)

( still under construction... )

Stephenie Meyer's Twilight Series

2008-12-04T23:29:00.013+08:00

For the past few months I've been hearing these Author's Vampire Saga everywhere. Even my online gamer friends were addicted to it. This is actually one of the hottest topic in our Forums ( i-lounge ) since it has been published. Well I am really not into these kind of books but when the movie of the first series, Twilight, has been brought to the silverscreen a lot of people were addicted to it. (duh... even my officemates)...

After that, curiosity makes me say

"What's in these book/movie that made them crazy?"

I researched in the internet just to know the story or background before reading the book. Well, not bad at all It actually make me excite to read since most of the vampire stories are set in Transylvania (somewhere in Central Europe, now called Romania), where Vampire stories started; But for Stephenie Meyer's version of vampire stories... It is set in the US, in the Olympic Peninsula in Washington State where the most rainfall in the US happens... And most of the people call this series as the Modern Day Vampire Storie...

...

After reading stuff in Google about Twilight and its Series.. I went back to the Forum ( i-lounge ), in "Twilight" thread where most of the members discuss on the book and on the movie; Luckily they uploaded the e-book of the four books.. ( Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn )

On my next post (following to this entry I will be posting the link where to download the e-book.. I already uploaded it in Mediafire )

UPDATE: PLEASE CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD THE E-BOOK.

15 Ways to Keep a Relationship

2008-12-01T23:32:00.002+08:00

I find these facts interesting.. This has been a repost from socyberty.com

Hope this facts can help you and lead you to a better and happy relationship.

Woooott!! ~~~

Love each other. The simplest but the most effective way of maintaining a good relationship is just to love each other. What is it in a relationship if there is no love, is it just lust from the very beginning?
Don't Lie. In any relationship, there should always be trust between the couple or else all will end up in chaos. We should always remember that there is no secret that can't be revealed, sooner or later you'll just find out that you are just cheating and putting yourself into shame.
Keep Good Communication. Personally I can say that good communication between couples should highly be done because it is the only way they can keep in touch; it is the only way(especially for distant relationships) to keep track of the feelings and emotions of the partners.
Stay Sweet. Although you may have faced some serious problems in your relationship, you should at least never lose your sweetness. Many problems occur when one of the couple cannot just be humble enough to accept that he or she is wrong.
After facing a fight with each other just forgive and forget. As humans, we can never avoid misunderstandings, because it is just the effect of our imperfections in life. But with that imperfection comes perfection because it is with that misunderstanding that the couple will know each other more.
Never talk about breakup. If you don't want breakups then why talk about it in the first place. Just talking about the possibilities of a breakup will leave an impression to your partner that you don't love him/her sincerely or you are just giving him/her the reason to quit your relationship.
If you are really sorry, mean it! The word sorry is just so common among men. Before planning on cheating on your partner, why not think again about the consequences you gonna end up facing.
Don't compare your past and present. You should not just compare your past to the present because the setting is completely different. You cannot just compare the picture coming out from a 'black and white television' with a 'digital flat screen television' because they are not of the same level.
Don't talk about your past relationships. Sticking to what have happened in the past will just give you hard time of moving on. You will never notice how your present partner loves you if ever you keep on thinking of your ex.
Give and take process. It is not always that one should be in charge of the other.
Be more sensitive of the feelings of your partner. It is not just enough to ask him/her about his/her feelings because most of the time he/she will hide true feelings. They will not just tell you in the sense that they don't want you to get hurt also.
When you had a fight, don't let the day pass without being fine. The longer you stay in a fight, the more time you need for reconciliation. Let us just remember that the more you let someone dying wait, the less chance of survival and same is true with love.
Don't be the perfect one, be the right one. Are you tired of being somebody else just to please your partner? You never need to do that in the first place. If you are really loved by your partner then he/she should accept you no matter who you are.

Swallow your pride. As I said earlier, relationships will never work unless one of the couple will be humble enough to lower himself/herself down even though he/she knows that he/she is not really the fault of the fight.
Among any other celebration, never forget to remember anniversaries or monthsaries. It is already very common among any other couples to be fighting over because one of them actually forgot to remember their anniversary. It is just perfectly understandable for someone to forget but whenever you try to explain to your partner just get it straight to the point. Just don't tell him/her that you had a stomach problem that's why you were not able to attend, oh come on it's just so highscool.

A Poem ...

2008-12-01T21:20:00.005+08:00

I just want to share this love poem that I read from "love poems and quotes"

~ ~ o o O o o ~ ~

The Way You Make Me Feel

You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.

You hold me close when I am sad.
You wipe the tears from my face.
Every time we are together,
It seems like the perfect place.

My eyes light up when you enter a room.
I smile when we are together.
No matter how bad things are,
You always make them better.

I love the way you kiss me,
The way you hold me tight.
I love the way you touch me,
I could be with you all night.

I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.

I just want you to know,
That even though we sometimes fight,
I will always love you!
No matter what, day or night.

- Amanda Standridge -

Yes God! its Me

2008-11-30T20:52:00.003+08:00

This is an inspirational quote that I got from Text Unli...

A truly inspirational... It actually got me...

--oOo--

When problems come we say in pain that

"God! why me?"

but when happines come to us daily and we do not say

"God! why me?"

...

Learn to say in every condition that

"Yes God! Its me"

Music has the Power to make us Heal

2008-11-29T02:25:00.001+08:00

I was browsing Youtube when all of a sudden I stcuck on this Video from CMA `08 Awards... As I am listenin to her Introduction on how music kept her going from the day she lost her beloved husband...

The Title of the song is Just a Dream performed live by Carrie Underwood... This song has been introduced by Leslie Ponder...

For me... Music really has the power to make us heal... It relaxes and soothes our mind in learning somethings in life... with the good combination of the medley, lyrics and the music all in all..

Songs That Listen To Your Heart

2008-11-27T18:02:00.000+08:00

It was quite a calm, silent and more peaceful day for me so far... The whole shift I'm listening to mellow songs... This songs realyl kept me going in accepting things that come my way which I do not expect... These are the songs that really touch your heart not just of the melody but the content of it.. Hope that these songs really listens on what your heart says...

Songs from Westlife.....

The Rose

The rose - Westlife

Moments

Moments - Westlife

Angel

Angel - Westlife

I Wanna Grow Old With You

I wanna grow old with you - Westlife

I Don't Wanna Fight

I Dont Wanna Fight - Westlife

Flying Without Wings

Flying Without Wings - Westlife

Missing Someone...

2008-11-26T20:31:00.000+08:00

Today... 2 text messages from a friend and a relative makes me smile and think of someone I miss the most ... As of the moment I am missing someone... Too bad I can't be with him all the time... But then again I realize.. You really need to miss someone to know how important they are... I hope that he is feeling the same way too..

I just want to share this wonderful message to those people who miss their love one(s)...

--oOo--

"When I'm not there... do you think of me? When you're sad and something's bothering you... do you wish I were there to help comfort you? When you've had a long hard day... do you smile knowing that soon you'll be seeing me, and everything will seem better, even if it's just for a moment? When you lay down at night... do you look back and cherish the new memories you've made with me? And when you get up in the morning, does everything inside of you smile, knowing that this will be another day that we'll be together? because that's how I think of you..."

--oOo--

Others say:

"Missing someone is when it's them you think of when your alone."

But I say:

"Missing someone is when your thinking of that perosn...

...

Even if your with a happy crowd.."

Ang Lalake sa Parola - Filipino Gay Themed Movie

2008-11-26T16:57:00.000+08:00

I was searching for any good indie movies when i finally got this one. Ive been searching for this movie in youtube, myspace and crunchyroll but its still not available..

After an intense searching.. I finally got the movie from dailymotion..

Well.. All I can say it is UNCUT (shock....) My first impression on this movie is purly on a love story between a young man from the province and city guy who visited the young guys place... Though it is part of the story.. But the main story is about the Legend or so called Myth of the Fairy that lives inside the lighthouse...

My rating on this movie... out of 10.. I'd give this a 6...

-oOo-

ANG LALAKE SA PAROLA (The Man in the Lighthouse) A homo-erotic journey in finding one’s true self Mateo (Harry Laurel) has been searching for his father (Richard Quan) who left when he was five. His search leads him to Lobo, Batangas only to discover that his father is in Dubai. Awaiting his father’s return, Mateo works as the caretaker of Lobo’s lighthouse. Here, he meets Jerome (Justin de Leon), a gay man from the city. What ensues soon after the meeting is the beginning of his homoerotic journey, while Suzet (Jennifer Lee), Mateo’s girlfriend struggles for his love and attention. What begins as a search for one’s father evolves into a search for one’s self. Will Mateo, in the midst of his conservative rural community, cross the thin line between being straight and being gay? This story is a search for oneself as seen through the lens of rural homosexuality, myths, and fairies (superstitions/belief?); and the lies that people create to escape the bitter realities of life.

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Dream of me...

2008-11-24T19:11:00.000+08:00

There came to a point where you reminisce and think of someone you love the most... Missing someone that you can hardly hold... When all you can do is dream...

This for you guys... who always believe in love... and never gave up on it...

I got this song from the movie "Get over it" that really inspire me... That there's always a room for dreaming and believing that anything could happen... and believing in love to last longer... and even forever...

Dream of Me

Let me sleep
For when I sleep
I dream that you are here
You’re mine
And all my fears are left behind
I float on air
The nightingale sings gentle lullabys
So let me close my eyes

And sleep
Per chance to dream
So I can see the face I long to touch
To kiss
But only dreams can bring me this
So let the moon
Shine softly on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams
He’ll dream of me

I’ll hide beneath the clouds
And whisper to the evening stars
They tell me love is just a dream away
Dream away (echo 3x)
I’ll dream away

So let the moon
Shine softly on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams
He’ll dream of me

Oooohhh
Dream of me

A Quote ...

2008-11-24T04:06:00.000+08:00

Without accepting the fact that everything changes, we cannot find perfect composure. But unfortunately, although it is true, it is difficult for us to accept it. Because we cannot accept the truth of transience, we suffer. ~Shunryu Suzuki

Let me share you this quote that really tells the truth... For those people who fears change... This quote let me remember my old self... Where I myself lived with a life that is constantly changing...

~Mhaldito

Bangkok Love Story - Thai Gay Themed Movie

2008-11-22T18:23:00.000+08:00

I just want to share this movie that I got from Crunchy Roll... It is a movie from Thailand...

Thailand indie films are more like subtle like this one... But this movie has its own story to tell.. Nice plot and Nice settings... a very tragic ending... This is a story of a young man... who fell inlove with an assassin... whose suppose to kill him... This story really shake me... It actually give us an idea that love do last forever without boundaries...

check this movie out..

Summary

Mhek is an assassin who is sent to kill It, but when a twist of fate brings the men together, Mhek refuses to kill It and in a gunfight, takes a bullet. It helps Mhek back to a safe house and is nursed back to health. A bond begins to develop, revealing emotions from the mens’ hearts to each other. Confused, since Mhek’s life as an assassin doesn’t allow him emotional attachments, especially with his assigned target, he attempts to leave but It will not give up on him. And when Mhek goes back to his boss to rectify the situation and It suddenly appears, the end result is a bloody gunfight that will pit enemies, friends and lovers against each other.

Cast
Rattaballung Toesawat - Mhek (Cloud)
Chaiwat Tongsang - It (Stone)
Weeradit Srimalai - Mhok (Fog)
Chatcha Rujinanon - Sai (Sand)

Video

Complete Video

Love is a matter of choice

2008-11-22T00:43:00.000+08:00

Still on Rest day...

I was busy reading some forum site and community site when suddenly i came across with a discussion about love.. It really inspire me reading these stuff...

It started when somebody posted ....

"if love is based on lies... does that mean its not a real feeling?"

then all of a sudden replies has been flowing... one reply that i liked the most and inspires me the most is this..

"It depends upon the choice of the person to be honest or not... but that doesn't mean that love is not a real feeling.. love is real and existing..."

"But i don't believe in love as a matter of fate. Love is a matter of choice.. "

"Yes and so as everything else just like love it is a decision, decision to whether make it last or not..."

----

for me..

Love indeed is a matter of choice.. Its a decision to make it last or not..

No Regret - Korean Gay Themed Movie

2008-11-21T20:26:00.000+08:00

To Start my Rest Day..

I found myself watching this movie early in the morning...

No Regret is a Korean Gay Themed Movie (I never thought that this kind of movie exist in Korea since most of us watch Koreanovela on TV)... It is most likely an indie movie.. nice plotting and nice settings.. ad very shocking scenes (hehehehe.... ) It is actually a sad movie but has a weird and nice ending..

Most of Korean Films involves a CEO ( a son or an heir ) who fall in love with a poor guy or likewise.. well in this movie.. Yes it is the main story but with a twist.. here is the summary that i got from Crunchy Roll

Summary:

Leaving the countryside orphanage where he spent his childhood years, Su-min comes to Seoul to study design. After a series of tough jobs to support himself, he unexpectedly ends up working as a prostitute in a gay bar.

There he meets Jae-min who's from a rich and conservative family that doesn’t accept his sexual identity. Yet Jae-min tries everything he could to win Su-min’s heart, much to Su-min's surprise and resistance. Can this complicated relationship between a wealthy conservative man and a country-raised young man have a future together?

After experiencing a moment of happiness as lovers, Su-min and Jae-min are pulled into a series of events that could means a tragic end for both. -- CR

Cast
Han Lee - Song Jae-min
Young-hoon Lee - Lee Su-min

Videos

PART 1
PART 2

How to Deal with Loneliness

2008-11-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

This article really made me think what to do(except for step 1.. hehehehe )

--ooOoo--

HOW TO DEAL WITH LONELINESS

STEP 1
STOP LOOKING. START WORKING If you've been feeling lonely for any length of time, chances are you've also been looking for a companion. Loneliness can drive us into some pretty bizarre and unhealthy relationships. Resist the urge to fall head over heals in love with a stranger online. Don't even think about calling your loser ex. Stop looking for love in desperate places and start investing your energy into something positive: yourself. When love finally comes around again, you'll have a lot more to offer that special someone.

Step2

GET INTERESTING Use your free time to learn the history of an exotic art. Take a class in cinema. Learn something that will make you more interesting conversation. The more you know, the more you can talk about. The more unique information you can share, the more compelling your company will be.

Step3

LEARN A SKILL Maybe you've always wanted to learn guitar or how to perform great magic tricks. Now you finally have the time to do it. Learn how to build furniture or paint a landscape. Each little talent you develop makes you a more interesting person. Part of learning to deal with loneliness is learning how to avoid it in the future. Show the deep, complicated, gifted person you are and you'll keep that special someone impressed.

Step4

GET HEALTHY Sure, you may need to lose a few pounds, but there are probably other areas of your life that aren't as healthy as they should be. If you have a bad habit, such as drinking, swearing, or fighting, use your time alone to get over it. Put the smokes down. Learn to control your temper. Do whatever you have to do to enter your next relationship as a healthy adult and you'll do a lot to ensure you won't be lonely again.

Step5

EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY Loneliness doesn't last forever. You won't always be alone. Keep things in perspective. Realize that this is a temporary situation and that if you really want company, the positive things you do for yourself will attract others to you. Nothing is hopeless. Your true love is on the way. It's your job to get ready!

Source: http://www.ehow.com/

The "Loner Life" can be tough

2008-11-18T15:07:00.000+08:00

As I am browsing the net... We dont have enough work loads to do so I decided to read some articles and some stories thru online while waiting to clock out.

I came across this site www.allphilosophy.com where they discuss and debate some interesting and humor topics. and this really caught me...

Being a loner this really explains how we feel an why some people misunderstand us...

--oOo--

Depending on if you choose to stay a loner or not, you will probably have rough waters ahead.

The loner life is tough and unstable. The worst part however is the transition with someone of the opposite sex. There are characteristics that normally make you "great" that now make you miserable. Like loyalty, feathfulness, kindness, and caring. The things that make you strong make you week and you just don't understand. You give and give with no return. Normally that wouldn't be that big of a deal, but the person you are caring for and wanting to be with and help out so much doesn't really notice.

The lack of aknowledgment makes it hard for the relationship to be "2 way". The lack of communication that you are so used to from being a loner now kills you. Your mind starts racing and you start feeling emotions which you aren't used to. You wonder why you feel like this when you know that you're doing Everything possible to make things enjoyable for everyone. It bugs you and makes you go crazy! Then you realize... that there are some things (like relationships) that can't be "one sided" you can't have control of the whole situation like normal. You have to rely on others to do their part (which scares you). You start looking back at your loner life and wishing you would have just stayed that way. But then part of your mind keeps telling you that being lonely sucks compared to a happy relationship. You sit and think for hours on end. you don't accomplish anything and you feel like crap.

People will offer to help you out but you turn them down because you are used to doing everything yourself. But you havn't been stuck like this before.

You aren't used to problems that you just can't solve on your own. You think if theres anyway that you could end things easily and go back to the loner life... but it's too late, you have been affected by another and all you can do now is hope... ...hope that you will show up on the radar. Hope that you can work your way up and be on the other persons mind. You want the chance to be a friend and have fun and joke around. but this person already has really good friends. there's no room for you in that aspect of their life. You think of other ways to be needed. You know that the family will always be there taking up most of the other persons life. You unfortunatly have to face the fact that things like sports will take priority over you also. You realize that no matter what the other person says and no matter what they do, they won't understand fully.

They won't understand that they aren't fully ready for someone like you. They havn't reached your age or your calibre. You are somewhat trapped in a position that brings you great joy and even greater pain. But you fight on because you never give up. You grit your teeth and decide that you're just tired and going crazy. You decide that you need sleep and you need to stop caring so much, just for a little bit. The other person will be too caught up in things to notice that you are fighting with yourself to focus on yourself once again if only for a few hours so you don't go insane. But you can't help but care for the other person and want to be with them all the time. you want to make them happy, you want to feel the comfort of having them by your side.

The comfort that you have been lacking your whole life... The comfort that a loner can never feel (or never feel and want to go back to just being a loner again). You want to make up for all the years that you havn't been able to pamper someone with love and be cared for and pampered in return. You don't want to do anything in fright that you could miss an opportunity with the other person. You anxiously await the times when you have a plan to hang out or even talk. You many times end up waiting for nothing, or for postponement. But it's those few times that you see them that you feed off of. You let everything else slide just to be with the other person while the other person has No idea that anything like this is going on. they don't ever have a second thought about the situation (if they even have a thought). You just decide that you are going to be in pain like this for awhile. but you will patiently wait out of the pain in hopes that the other person will progress or that something might change. you will put yourself in every possible place to open up an opportunity. Your head starts to hurt because you have been thinking and stressing too much and decide to "just relax" and go to sleep before you can talk yourself out of giving yourself a break. For tomorrow is another day! and you can think things through all over again when you wake up.

source: http://allphilosophy.com/topic/show/1344

Meme: Hoodlum

2008-11-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hoodlum: The Bonnet, The Shades and The Beer ( not shown )

Meme

A meme (pronounced /miːm/)^[1] consists of any idea or behavior that can pass from one person to another by learning or imitation. Examples include thoughts, ideas, theories, gestures, practices, fashions, habits, songs, and dances. Memes propagate themselves and can move through the cultural sociosphere in a manner similar to the contagious behavior of a virus.

(from Jabbered Onion...)

a meme (rhymes to theme) is an action created by someone that gets passed on to the next participant through tagging. it is generally an internet epidemic.

I am tagging the following people: (2 from Multiply and 1 from Wordpress)

Instructions:

upload the most interesting pic you have on your camera phone
create a caption in three words and write it below the pic
post this same entry in your blog
include the caption in the title of your blog
pass it on to 5 of your friends who will pass it on to their friends and so on...
when you're done, leave a comment on the IT's meme entry that you are.

Interesting Facts

2008-11-13T19:04:00.000+08:00

As I am browsing websites during the my restday ( as what I usually do, everytime that I feel bored ). I came across with these website "interesting facts". It consist of different unusual and interesting facts that we may not know. Let me share some of the interesting facts that really caught me.

~oOo~

UMA THURMAN

Uma Karuna Thurman, daughter of Robert Thurman and Nena Thurman, was born in Boston, Massachusetts, on April 29, 1970. Uma's father was the first American to be ordained a Tibetan Buddhist monk. Her mother is a Swedish psychotherapist and former Vogue model once married to the LSD guru Timothy Leary. Uma's mothers father, german baron, was held by Nazis because he didn't want to reveal his Jewish friends hideout. Uma Thurman had been briefly married to Gary Oldman when she was nineteen.

TESTIS / TESTIFY

The word \"testis\" cames from the Latin meaning to bear witness. In ancient Rome, only men could bear witness or testify in a public forum. In order to show importance to their testimony, they would hold their testicles as they spoke, and an oath was declared while holding another\'s testicles.

INSECTS IN YOUR CHOCOLATES

Did you know that the average chocolate bar in the U.S. contains at least 8 pieces of an insect in it? Harvesting of the cacao beans occurs in the tropical countries of South America with low sanitation levels. Cacao tree beans are cut and piled in the farmer's field where they ferment for 6 days. During this process, children and adults walk over the piles; insects, rodents, small animals and other living things that make their nests in the piles. Actually the The U. S. Department of Health publishes a book entitled "The Food Defect Action Levels" in which they list unavoidable defects in food (insect, rodents etc.) all allowed by FDA.

~oOo~

To learn and know some of unusual and interesting facts. Please visit www.interestingfacts.org

Love Letters of Great Men [ Beethoven's Letters ]

2008-11-10T15:31:00.000+08:00

After I saw the movie "Sex and the City" I am very curious about the Book that they referred in the movie. It is titled "Love Letters of Great Men"...
In reality the book doesn't exist but the letters are true.

As I am reading their Letters (through the internet) I was very touched to Beethoven's letter.

Historians believe that they were written to a married woman whom he loved so much.. and was leaving the place at this time when he wrote the letter. These letters were found in Beethoven's desk after he died.

Here are the 3 letters that I found from romance class..

~o~o~O~o~o~

July 6, in the morning

My angel, my all, my very self - Only a few words today and at that with pencil (with yours) - Not till tomorrow will my lodgings be definitely determined upon - what a useless waste of time - Why this deep sorrow when necessity speaks - can our love endure except through sacrifices, through not demanding everything from one another; can you change the fact that you are not wholly mine, I not wholly thine - Oh God, look out into the beauties of nature and comfort your heart with that which must be - Love demands everything and that very justly - thus it is to me with you, and to your with me. But you forget so easily that I must live for me and for you; if we were wholly united you would feel the pain of it as little as I - My journey was a fearful one; I did not reach here until 4 o'clock yesterday morning. Lacking horses the post-coach chose another route, but what an awful one; at the stage before the last I was warned not to travel at night; I was made fearful of a forest, but that only made me the more eager - and I was wrong. The coach must needs break down on the wretched road, a bottomless mud road. Without such postilions as I had with me I should have remained stuck in the road. Esterhazy, traveling the usual road here, had the same fate with eight horses that I had with four - Yet I got some pleasure out of it, as I always do when I successfully overcome difficulties - Now a quick change to things internal from things external. We shall surely see each other soon; moreover, today I cannot share with you the thoughts I have had during these last few days touching my own life - If our hearts were always close together, I would have none of these. My heart is full of so many things to say to you - ah - there are moments when I feel that speech amounts to nothing at all - Cheer up - remain my true, my only treasure, my all as I am yours. The gods must send us the rest, what for us must and shall be -

Your faithful LUDWIG.

~o~o~O~o~o~

Evening, Monday, July 6

You are suffering, my dearest creature - only now have I learned that letters must be posted very early in the morning on Mondays to Thursdays - the only days on which the mail-coach goes from here to K. - You are suffering - Ah, wherever I am, there you are also - I will arrange it with you and me that I can live with you. What a life!!! thus!!! without you - pursued by the goodness of mankind hither and thither - which I as little want to deserve as I deserve it - Humility of man towards man - it pains me - and when I consider myself in relation to the universe, what am I and what is He - whom we call the greatest - and yet - herein lies the divine in man - I weep when I reflect that you will probably not receive the first report from me until Saturday - Much as you love me - I love you more - But do not ever conceal yourself from me - good night - As I am taking the baths I must go to bed - Oh God - so near! so far! Is not our love truly a heavenly structure, and also as firm as the vault of heaven?

~o~o~O~o~o~

Good morning, on July 7

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

~o~o~O~o~o~

Thoughts to Ponder

2008-11-08T11:58:00.000+08:00

Every time I feel down and feel lonely I always look up for a site and read some of the best quotes just to make me feel better.

and this is what I got for today...

To find what you seek in the road of life,
the best proverb of all is that which says:
"Leave no stone unturned."
- Edward Bulwer Lytton

The man who makes a success of an important venture never wails for the crowd. He strikes out for himself. It takes nerve, it takes a great lot of grit; but the man that succeeds has both. Anyone can fail. The public admires the man who has enough confidence in himself to take a chance. These chances are the main things after all. The man who tries to succeed must expect to be criticized. Nothing important was ever done but the greater number consulted previously doubted the possibility. Success is the accomplishment of that which most people think can't be done.
- C. V. White

One who understands much displays a greater simplicity of character than one who understands little.
- Alexander Chase

The chances are that you have already come to believe that happiness is unattainable. But men have attained it. And they have attained it by realising that happiness does not spring from the procuring of physical or mental pleasure, but from the development of reason and the adjustment of conduct to principles.
- from How to Live on 24 Hours a Day, by Arnold Bennett

It is not work that kills men, it is worry. Work is healthy; you can hardly put more on a man than he can bear. But worry is rust upon the blade. It is not movement that destroys the machinery, but friction.
- Henry Ward Beecher

The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.
- Martin Luther King, Jr.
(from Christian Leadership World)

hope u enjoy and may this inspirational and motivational quotes may somewhat help you think that you're a better person ( well it somehow worked for me... ^_~ )

and this one is a funny quote that most of us hear ( well this actually works... )

If at first you don't succeed, try, try again. Then quit. There's no use being a damn fool about it.
- W.C. Fields

My Halloween Treat

2008-11-08T01:56:00.000+08:00

2:00 AM

I'm still wide awake and it seems that I can't sleep. After doing some retouch on my site.. I surfed the net until I found this interesting footages in youtube..

WARNING: MAKE SURE YOU'RE NOT ALONE WHEN VIEWING THIS VIDEOS AND LIGHTS ON!

"Patience" - Is it really a virtue?

2008-11-04T17:43:00.000+08:00

I always believe in the saying ...

"Patience is a virtue..."

But what happened today made me think and rephrase that quote to...

"Patience, Is it really a virtue?"

---

Why are there people keeps pulling you down despite of what you did in order to make them better? And all you can do is to let them pull you down and make them a better one. This question really boggles my mind every time. I guess I have a lot patience on that. But I guess I reached the limit.

----

Why is it that there are certain people that you treat as a good friend would turn their back and pull you down as well instead of defending you and hear your side. I guess its very hard to find a friend that is sincere and would see you on the good side not on the bad side (as what most of us do.). I've had enough... well i guess not most of the time u get a good catch..

----

One text message (an advise) from a friend ( a true friend )... said

"You are not born to please these kind of people."

Conclusion?....

Be a better person, have more patience on improving yourself than wasting it by pleasing them... Let them see you that you stood on a platform with them not on a platform up on the stage..

Describing Love ..... a quote

2008-10-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

One of the best Description of Love that I've ever read...

oOo

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

- Captain Corelli's Mandolin.

copy and paste ... question and answer

2008-10-27T19:42:00.000+08:00

This is actually a "copy and paste" (thats what i call it.. i really dont know what is the term for this one... ) post that is very rampant in friendster.. I usually don't tend to answer this questions since it really takes time.. plus you need to be honest.. and usually some of the questions are too personal to handle. This question is posted by my colleague who happens to be very "emo"...

Well...

I dared to try answering those questions and see what will be the result... so here it goes... :)

xxx

1. Today is:
♥ Moday
.
2. I should be:
♥ sleepin
.
3. The last text message I received was from:
♥ p0h
.
4. And it said:
♥ I Love You
.
5. I am currently pissed off because:
♥ I can't sleep eventhough I am so tired.
.
6. My cellphone rings and the song that's playing is:
♥ Classic Phone ( am not into songs that is used as a ringtone )
.
7. I would love to see:
♥ my poh.. :(
.
8. If I could change my last name, it would be:
♥ Cruz
.
9. After school, I love to:
♥ play Online Games
.
10. My favorite subject is:
♥ Math (duh!)
.
11. I hate yesterday because:
♥ I am so worried.
.
12. But I still sort of didn't because:
♥ I trust him.
.
13. My favorite song right now would have to be:
♥ The Rose by Westlife / Flying Without Wings by Westlife
.
14. I sometimes forget to:
♥ my ID
.
15.
If you had to be in a heterosexual relationship, you wouldn't mind it being with:
♥ Angelina Jolie
.
16. My favorite number/s would have to be:
♥ 17
.
17. When I'm in a bad mood, it's better to just:
♥ be silent and listen to music, sitting in front of my PC.
.
18. I really can't stand:
♥ when I only have 1 hour of sleep.
.
19. I'd break up with a boyfriend/girlfriend right away if?
♥ if he cheats on me.
.
20. If I were to get stuck in an elevator with someone, it would have to be:
♥ nothing.. it would have to be me, myself and I.. I dont want other people see me scared.
.
21. I'd really like to improve my work on:
♥ Healthy Living
.
22 . The last thing that wasn't good that I bought with my own money is:
♥ None, Everything that I bought wether I like it or not is still good since I decided to buy it before knowing whats the quality.
.
23. The name of the village where I live is:
♥ ( dili ko rich )
.
24. I have never ridden:
♥ Airplane
.
25. If I won the lottery of 1M, the first thing I would buy is:
♥ House
.
26. One bad habit of mine is:
♥ Possessive
.
27. I go to work in
♥ IT Park
.
28. I work there because
♥ I chose to ..? ...
.
29. One friend who is not from my HOMETOWN is:
♥ most of them....
.
30. I am currently stressed because:
♥ I'm still worried
.

THE UNCOMFORTABLE SURVEY. (lets see if you can get through it. if not, you're too scared about your past)

1. Longest relationship?
* 3 years .

2. Shortest?
*1 day? .

3. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you they love you?
* All of them .

4. Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?
* I don't believe in marriage. I believe in commitment. .

5. Have you ever been cheated on?
* Yes .

6. What is your favorite thing about the preferred sex?
* Hmmm Its when closing your eyes and having that feeling that you are secured. .

7. Have you ever had your heart broken?
* Yes .

8. When was it last broken?
* Major Heartbreak... That was 4 years ago. .

9. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
* I can't tell. We always have that bad side. .

10. Have you dated people who were not good to you?
* Yes. Those were the days when Im desperate and I need someone to talk to. .

11. Have you dated someone older than you?
* Yes. .

12. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
* I always give chance. .

13. Believe in love at first sight?
* Nope .

14. Ever dated two people at once?
* Nope .

15. Do you want to get married?
* Lifetime Partner .

16. Wanna say something to some of your ex's?
* I do not deserve you. Maybe you deserve something better. .

17. Ever stolen someone's boyfriend or girlfriend?
* Nope .

18. Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
* The Worst feeling that I have. That took me 2 years to recover. .

You have to answer the survey with an honest heart. Answer it, "What if your ex says" referring to you!

1. Why did you let me go?
* Because I don't deserve you. And, you deserve something better. .

2. I still love you?
* I care for you "friend". .

3. When did we last talk?
* 1 year after our break up and I finally said that I am moving on. .

4. Will you go out with me?
* Tagay? Sure.... but with poh.. .

5. Hey, can i give you a ride?
* padung IT park.. sure kay hapit nako malate... .

6. Apir?
* Pak!! .

7. My friends say we don't look good together.
* coz kamo man ang mas bagay... .

8. You have changed.
* I didn't change. Its just me who got to be better and more mature. .

9. Can we get back together?
* I guess not. If you did it once, you can do it the second time around. .

10. Oh, I know what this is all about You found someone else.
* You got a good guess. And currently am happy with him. .

11. Don't you realize? You are the one who hurt me!
* I hurt you coz you want me to do so. .

12. How can you forget our memories?
* I always appreciate our memories together. In fact it made me think and realize that my life does not evolve around you. .

13. I will always..
* be your friend.. when no one seems to understand you.. I'll be the one who's gonna tell you that "hey, we always move forward.. Don't get stuck to a place where it does not feels u good...."

Queen Gorgo's Speech

2008-10-13T18:45:00.000+08:00

One bored afternoon. I am sitting in front of my PC thinking on what to do (aside from checking my mails, friendster, Poh' blog and clicking on the ads, etc...)

My Lineage II private server is still having problem connecting due to Game Guard error. Rf Equilibrium is still not online and conducting some technical stuff.

I scanned my DVD's and found if I can watch some movies again that I've watched before.

One of `em is "300"

Aside from King Leonida's 300 Army of Gorgeous Bodies (hehehehe), I love the concept and the thing that it has something to do with History (my type of movie)....

now lets get back to the topic....

Queen Gorgo... King Leonida's wife... is trying to convince the Sparta Councilmen to send their Army not just for the King but for the 300 Army that sacrificed their lives just to protect Sparta and its greatness.

I always like her speech. I just want it to share to you the content of the speech. (in text)

***

Councilmen, I stand before you today not only as your Queen: I come to you as a mother; I come to you as a wife; I come to you as a Spartan woman; I come to you with great humility.

I am not here to represent Leonidas; his actions speak louder than my words ever could. I am here for all those voices which cannot be heard: mothers, daughters, fathers, sons -- 300 families that bleed for our rights, and for the very principles this room was built upon.

We are at war, gentlemen. We must send the entire Spartan army to aid our King in the preservation of not just ourselves, but of our children.

Send the army for the preservation of liberty.

Send it for justice.

Send it for law and order.

Send it for reason.

But most importantly, send our army for hope -- hope that a king and his men have not been wasted to the pages of history -- that their courage bonds us together, that we are made stronger by their actions, and that your choices today reflect their bravery.

***

Mhaldito~

Tricky Questions

2008-10-10T20:54:00.000+08:00

lately I've been trying to be genius by solving some tricky questions. I even took an IQ Test through online and got a 124 score. I don't know why.

Well here are some tricky questions that I have for you.

Enjoy!!

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The maker doesn't want it; the buyer doesn't use it; and the user doesn't see it. What is it?
A child is born in Boston, Massachusetts to parents who were both born in Boston, Massachusetts. The child is not a United States citizen. How is this possible?
Before Mount Everest was discovered, what was the highest mountain on Earth?
Clara Clatter was born on December 27th, yet her birthday is always in the summer. How is this possible?
Captain Frank and some of the boys were exchanging old war stories. Art Bragg offered one about how his grandfather led a battalion against a German division during World War I. Through brilliant maneuvers he defeated them and captured valuable territory. After the battle he was presented with a sword bearing the inscription "To Captain Bragg for Bravery, Daring and Leadership. World War I. From the Men of Battalion 8." Captain Frank looked at Art and said, "You really don't expect anyone to believe that yarn, do you?" What's wrong with the story?
What is one thing that all wise men, regardless of their religion or politics, agree is between heaven and earth?
In what year did Christmas and New Year's fall in the same year?
A woman from New York married ten different men from that city, yet she did not break any laws. None of these men died and she never divorced. How was this possible?
Why are 1990 American dollar bills worth more than 1989 American dollar bills?
How many times can you subtract the number 5 from 25?
A taxi driver was called to take a group of passengers to the train station. The station is normally an hour away, but with traffic being extra heavy, it took a full hour and a half. On the return trip the traffic was still as heavy and yet it took only 90 minutes. Why?
How could you rearrange the letters in the words "new door" to make one word? Note: There is only one correct answer.
Even if they are starving, natives living in the Arctic will never eat a penguin's egg. Why not?
Which is correct to say, "The yolk of the egg are white" or "The yolk of the egg is white"?
In Okmulgee, Oklahoma, you cannot take a picture of a man with a wooden leg. Why not?
There were an electrician and a plumber waiting in line for admission to the "International Home Show". One of them was the father of the other's son. How could this be possible?
After the new Canon Law that took effect on November 27, 1983, would a Roman Catholic man be allowed to marry his widow's sister?

***

Answers

A coffin
The child was born before 1776
Mount Everest, it just hadn't been discovered!
Clara lives in the southern hemisphere.
World War I wasn't called "World War I" until World War II.
The word "and".
They fall in the same year every year, New Year's Day just arrives very early in the year and Christmas arrives very late in the same year.
The lady was a Justice of the Peace.
One thousand nine hundred and ninety dollar bills are worth one dollar more than one thousand nine hundred and eighty-nine dollar bills.
Only once, then you are subtracting it from 20.
An hour and a half IS 90 minutes.
"one word"
Penguins live in the Antarctic.
Neither, the yolk of the egg is yellow.
You have to take a picture of a man with a camera, not with a wooden leg.
They were husband and wife.
He can't because he's dead.

Mhaldito~

What is 'Milestone' in an 'action plan'?

2008-10-09T11:33:00.000+08:00

CiteMan stands for "CITE reference for MANagement Network". It is a free subscription website, community forums where you can discuss anything about Management.

you can check their website @ http://www.citeops.com/

CiteMan Digest has been sending me emails almost everyday. This time I was curious about the topic that they sent. "Milestone in an Action Plan".

These is the content of the discussion. And I wanted it to share with you guys.

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What is 'Milestone' in an 'action plan'?

Milestones are installed to reassure travellers that the proper path is being followed and to indicate either distance traveled or the remaining distance to a destination.

Action Plan: A specific document describing various steps (including timeline, and responsibilities) to be performed during the implementation of business / process improvements

Within the framework of action plan, a “milestone” is the end of a stage that marks the completion of a step or phase. At this juncture, a review of outcome of activities may help to decide further course of action. In this sense, a "milestone" not only signifies distance traveled (key stages in an action plan) but also indicates direction of travel since key decisions made at milestones may alter the route through the action plan.

They are those part of action plan at which a review is essential to see the progress made and carryout the course correction according to whether we are ahead in execution of the action, behind the desired point and what needs to be done to correct the situation.

It is a stage which is measurable and / or crucial for effective execution of the action plan. On schedule achievement of a mile stone confirms all is well else one has to review and revise action plan or get paln B, plan C etc rolling.

***

25 Things You Didn.t Know About Coffee

2008-10-08T17:45:00.000+08:00

Sitting in front of my PC.

I was reading articles and facts through 'Google Search' when I was stuck reading this topic.

"COFFEE"

I am a Coffee lover since Elementary. I drank at least a cup every night before going to sleep during my High School days and College years.

I wanted to share this 'facts" by www.gomester.com about coffee (this Article was been issued last 2007).

http://www.gomestic.com/Consumer-Information/25-Facts-About-Coffee.42195

65 countries in the world grow coffee. They are all along the equator, within the tropics.
Coffee is not grown anywhere in the United States except Puerto Rico and Hawaii.
In 1675 Charles II, King of England issued a proclamation banning Coffee Houses. He said that they were places where people met to plot against him.
30% of coffee drinkers in US added a sweetener of some kind to their coffee, compared with 57% in UK.
October 1st is official "Coffee Day" in Japan.
Scientists have discovered more than 800 different aromatic compounds in coffee.
Coffee is the second most traded commodity in the world (oil is the first.)
Brazil produces around 40% of the world's coffee supply.
A Belgian named George Washington invented instant coffee in 1906.
Coffee has been used as a beverage for over 700 years.
Black coffee with no sugar contains no calories.
More than 20 million people worldwide, work in the coffee industry.
There are two species of coffee plant: Arabica and Robusta.
75% of the world's coffee comes from the Coffea Arabica plant.
Drinking a single cup of coffee that has been brewing for 20 minutes provides the body with 300 phytochemicals which act as antioxidants and stay in the body for up to a month.
In days gone by, Turkish bridegroom had to promise that they would always provide their new wives with coffee.
Espresso Coffee has just one third of the caffeine content of ordinary coffee.
Coffee beans are really berries. Each berry contains two beans (pips).
An expert in preparing Turkish coffee is known as a "kahveci".
The Nicaraguan Margogpipe is the largest of all coffee beans.
It takes 40 coffee beans to make an espresso.
One coffee tree yields less than half a kilo of coffee per year.
A coffee tree lives for between 60 and 70 years.
Worldwide, more 1400 millions cups of coffee are drunk every day.
Caffeine, which is found in coffee, increases the effect of some painkillers, especially aspirin and paracetamol.

Getting Serious

2008-10-07T15:21:00.000+08:00

Finding a serious relationship is not easy to get. It takes a lot of stressful stages just to know that a person is really into you and you are ready to commit. Sometimes getting to know each other is not enough just to start a relationship. It takes a lot of strategy just to know if that person really cares or commit on what he says.

A friend of mine met a guy through chat and find him interesting. They exchange numbers and get to know each other through SMS. They met... and find themselves comfortable with each other... As days goes by... Constant communication showing affection.. numerous dates and thinking that they like each other... They step up into the next level and starting to build a serious relationship...

After days of observation if they are really into each other... My friend told me that he feels that his partner is just playing around and likes him just to be around... I asked him a question. "Were you able to confirm or is it just that you feel that he is not that serious?" He said.. "yes" ... I replied.. "How?" ... He answered.. "He just wanted me to be around." ... I did not replied coz its his own perception to think that way and I respect it... But when I realized and suddenly a question came out of my mouth... "How can u be serious if you think that he cheats on you with just one simple reason?"...

no answer at all... (deadma ang show)

-------

Meeting and Getting to know each other is not enough just to start a serious relationship. It takes time to trust somebody's commitment. When you try to commit your not playing at all. You risk yourself and gamble your emotion with discourage.

Do not expect when you try to commit, Learn from each others mistake,Give time and space to breathe, Learn to accept that he has his own life and his life doesn't evolve around you (vice versa), Wait and never give up. With these you will truly see that Getting Serious is not like a candy that you can grab it and eat it right away.

Mhaldito~

Seventh Deadly Sin: 'Pride'

2008-09-27T14:45:00.000+08:00

Earlier today during my shift we were busy chatting and answer some trivia through our conference room when suddenly a question has been posted by my colleague.

"Enumerate the Seven Deadly Sin"

They suddenly answered and I was busy reading.

1. Lust

2. Gluttony

3. Greed

4. Sloth

5. Wrath

6. Envy

....

....

Then suddenly somebody posted

7. Pride

That makes me wonder why.. I opened wikipedia and searched for the topic and read the article.. the first few sentence states:

"In almost every list pride (or hubris or vanity) is considered the original and most serious of the seven deadly sins, and indeed the ultimate source from which the others arise. It is identified as a desire to be more important or attractive than others, failing to give compliments to others though they may be deserving of them,and excessive love of self (especially holding self out of proper position toward God)."

***

Reading from the definition itself it has something to do with vanity. But when i tried to think and relate this article to myself. Its not just vanity or looking at yourself but it has something to do with people around you and what does it affect to them.

I myself has a pride that made me say that I am selfish. I already accepted it and I learned lessons from it.

Pride does not satisfy you on what you believe and what you want others sees you. It can make you isolate and desperate not just because of selfishness but because of your desire to be happy.

But still I can say I live with my own pride. Still hoping to seek happiness as what other people live by.

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But one question still comes to my mind...

Why most of people live with their own pride... :)

ALZHEIMERS EYE TEST

2008-09-27T14:44:00.000+08:00

*** A text message from a friend....

COUNT EVERY "F" IN THE FOLLOWING TEXT:

FINISHED FILES ARE ARE THE RESULT OF YEARS OF SCIENTIFIC STUDY COMBINED WITH THE EXPERIENCE OF YEARS.

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HOW MANY?

3? WRONG!!

THERE ARE 6 (no joke)

READ IT AGAIN

...

Why?

The Brain cannot process "OF".
Incredible or what?
Go back and look again!!

Anyone who counts all 6 "F" on the first go is a genius.
Three is normal.
Four is quite rare...

Theres no such thing as Destiny...

2008-09-27T14:43:00.001+08:00

When I woke up, I rushed in front of my PC and do some bonding moment with it since its my rest day.

I changed all my status to Available in both YM and GTalk.

I came across with friend who is online. We talked for almost an hour. He was nursing graduate and currently in one of the hospitals here in the country.

When we chatted he said that he will be out of the country soon because his "Destiny" calls him to go there and work.

I said...

"There is no such things as Destiny." He replied, "Yes, there is.. Working out of the country is my Destiny and its calling me."

and then I paused.. tried to think.. and then said..

"Destiny do not exist. Everything happens for a reason cause you chose for it. You choose what would you do in life that would make your life easy. Its like having a dream and ambition.. You cannot achieve them once you do not do it and decide for yourself... In my own opinion what you decide for yourself is what makes you a better person and what makes your life more easier. It is not destiny.. It is what you do and what you choose that will make you happy."

suddenly ... there was silence..

and he said..

"yeah.. you're right.."

Satisfaction VS Contentment

2008-09-27T14:41:00.000+08:00

After shift..

We decided to go out and have some drink since its the last day prior to our new shift. We decided to go in mango since its Saturday night (technically Sunday dawn).

While we were in the cab a topic has been opened by Dhomz ( teammate and a good friend ),

he said

"Theres no such thing as satisfaction."

...

...

It made me think and said "yeah right" (in a sarcastic way).

And suddenly Yodge (supervisor/friend) said..

"But there is contentment...

Satisfaction... you can be satisfied of what you are but there is something that lacks you.

While being contented you can be happy and satisfied cause you accept what you are.. what you do.. what other people treat you.."

I ended the topic, since we already arrived in our destination, saying...

"Basta ako.. am SATISFIED.."